Deployment blues :(

Well my husband is on his way to afghanistan as we speak..Ive been a mess.But trying so hard to keep busy..Does the pain of them leaving ever go away..Im pretty upset cause he deployed from germany and i had to come bak home so i was unable to see him off..It really hurts knoing he had to leave with out me being there..As an army wife i feel like thats part of our duty..And i couldnt fullfill that one.But were hoping that he gets his leave in june i cant wait to see him..I feel empty without him..It was like a part of me left with him wen he left :(..I just pray to god that he keeps my husband safe and he comes home safe and sound soo.